Imagine a Woman

Imagine a woman who is interested in her own life.
A woman who embraces her life as teacher, healer, and challenger.
Who is grateful for the ordinary moments of beauty and grace.

Imagine a woman who participates in her own life.
A woman who meets each challenge with creativity.
Who takes action on her own behalf with clarity and strength.

Imagine a woman who has crafted a fully-formed solitude.
A woman who is available to herself.
Who chooses friends and lovers with the capacity to respect her solitude.

Imagine a woman who acknowledges the full range of human emotion.
A woman who expresses her feelings clearly and directly.
Who allows them to pass through her as naturally as the breath.

Imagine a woman who tells the truth.
A woman who trusts her experience of the world and expresses it.
Who refuses to defer to the thoughts, perceptions, and responses of others.

Imagine a woman who follows her creative impulses.
A woman who produces original creations.
Who refuses to color inside someone else’s lines.

Imagine a woman who has relinquished the desire for intellectual safety and approval.
A woman who makes a powerful statement with every action she takes.
Who asserts to herself the right to reorder the world.

Imagine a woman who has grown in knowledge and love of herself.
A woman who has vowed faithfulness to her own life.
Who remains loyal to herself~Regardless.

~Imagine yourself as this woman~

Endless Love

I found this today and thought it soooo inspiring. My hope in sharing this is that it inspires others as well. Have a blessed day

New Friends..

Today I’ve been talking to a somewhat new friend. I like her…and can see why others do too.  In conversing with her; it brought many thoughts to mind. I’m sitting here pondering on these thoughts…I wonder about love, life, happiness, heartbreak, and the meaning of things. Do you ever feel something is missing in your life; but you just can’t put a finger on what it is? I feel that way. I have family whom I love and who I know loves me. I have wonderful friends. I’m healthy. I struggle financially at times…but I’m making it. Yet there is something there…I can’t seem to figure it out. I miss…something. Is is a someone? I don’t know. Maybe it is something I have yet to do. I dislike this feeling.

I am glad she’s talking to me.  Everyone needs someone to talk to. Who understands and doesn’t judge. Sometimes it feels like everyone has an agenda. Even your family and friends. You try to talk to them; but things get turned around and they can make it all about them. Or they want to bash and insult. Having someone just listen means a lot. Someone who doesn’t want anything in return. I let her vent some of her frustrations and I tried to uplift her and give her hope. I do hope she smiled and is feeling better.

Sometimes life can seem cruel and unfair. Random people we meet can impressions, some good and some not so. I try to make good impressions. I want the people I meet to remember me fondly. I want my friends and family to have nothing but good things to say about me. I also know that it might not happen in every case; but I strive for the majority.

I Hope You Dance….

I love this song..The words are very inspirational to me.

It makes me think of so many people, things, and places I’ve been in my life.  I think we all have met certain people through our journeys that have touched us in a way that can only be described as destiny or meant to be if you will. It’s amazing how sometimes; something so simple to one, can mean so much to another. Or even just a chance meeting…or just having a loved one for such a short amount of time, can leave such an impression. There have been people in my life who I have loved with every fiber of my being…some knew it..perhaps some did not; maybe I wanted it that way…or not. Regardless I still love them and they mean the world to me. Some I can never see or touch again…some I hope to meet again.  This song brings many a face to mind though…and that’s what I love about it. So whether you care for it …or not, just know that I think the words are heartfelt and beautiful and you may be one of the people that come to mind when I listen to it again. To all of you…I hope you dance.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you’ll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they’re worth taking
Lovin’ might be a mistake
But it’s worth making
Don’t let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you’ll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

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Just a vent

Today is Thursday …I’m feeling a bit better; stress wise. I have no idea what my problem is. Why I just can’t focus on what REALLY important sometimes. I live in the moment to much for my own good.
I put myself in situations that I have to crawl out of on my hands and knees. Once I’m out things go so much smoother…yet I’ll do it all over again…grrrrr.
Part of my problem is I’m living beyond my means at the moment. I’m not used to scrimping and saving. When I was married we owned a multi million dollar company. We were successful. Didn’t really have a financial worry in the world. Now that I’ve been divorced a couple of years and have been thrust out of that world; I find it sooooo hard to have so little income to work with. I literally will sit at my desk for hours going through my bills figuring out what to pay first or last, moving things around just to eat and have a little pocket money. It is very humbling to say the least. It makes me want to cry sometimes thinking about it.
I HATE to admit defeat. I’m naturally a fighter. I have been looking for work avidly for over a year. I’m either over qualified or have no experience . (I was an at home mom for many years). There seems to be nothing out there…sigh. I had 2 interviews with a company last week and called them back 3 times since and keep getting call back later or we’ll call you soon. GRRRR
I’ve been super stressed lately. Having headaches and fitful sleep. For example. Last week was my 2nd oldest daughters birthday. She turned 13. I didn’t have any money left over from paying my electric bill to get her anything. I had to get a $100.00 advance off this weeks child support to actually be able to eat and have fuel for the car. So this weeks child support will be a bit smaller. I promised her I’d take her to have her hair done. So I’m sitting here trying to figure out my bills and squeezing out enough money to do that for her. She’s such a great kid to understand that.
My kids go back and forth every other week from here to dads house. I know it frustrates them to go from there where it’s prosperous to here where the budgets tight and friggn McD’s is a treat. They never complain. I love my kids dearly. I think I have the best kids on earth!
I try to never complain…just vent here in my blogs haha . I never complain to or around them. Sure they’ll ask for things like “mom can we go to Busch Gardens on Sat.” Of course the answers always  “I’m sorry but I have to pay this bill or that… maybe soon” But they just say “OK” and take it stride. I’m blessed.
As for now I’m just keeping my eye on the prize. Things wont always be so hard. Soon I will land a job…any job and even if it’s a couple a hundred dollars a week; that would make all the difference in the world.
Thanks for letting me vent. I don’t like to be a complainer. Or a downer. Guess that’s why I do it here as not to bring my troubles out into the world or onto my friends.

Thankful

Good Sunday Morning Guys…Today I figured would be a good day to thank God for all the things in my life that rock. I had a long prelude but my draft didn’t save so screw it I’ll just get down to the nitty gritty.

Things I’m Thankful for:

My children <— who are awesome even though I got my mothering techniques from watching Roseanne
My family <–though small and aggravating …I’m still glad I have them
My home and Sahweeeet ride <— double thanks for these God
My friends <—They rock
The fact that my Ex- hubby is stuck with a Biotch who makes him miserable <—- Booya! Quadruple thanks Lord
Tequila and or red wine <–whichever one is not a sin to be thankful for.
My dryer and dishwasher <—love those
Hot water ,–because I heart hot showers
My bills being all caught up <– With my procrastination only God got this done
Brad Pitt and Hugh Jackman <–Good job Lord
My sanity <– with 4 kiddos you can see why I am thankful for this
Art and music <–a contributor to my sanity being intact…I have an outlet for my creativity through these
The Ocean <–My second home and the one place on the earth where I feel truly at peace

I have tons more but these are just a few examples of things that make me thankful everyday. What are you thankful for?